iam ELVA

The past week, i got to say, passed quickly, but it wasn't like usual. I dunno why, but i enjoyed last week.
School wasn't so bad, really. I could still handle it. Everything was fine.
I learnt new stuff not just in school but also through friendship.

Even i was surprised. But i promised to keep that person's idenitity a hush hush for some reasons iam not so sure.
Let's call the person HELLOW (Yup, some dumb name that just pop up in my head)
So i asked Hellow out, and i didn't expect myself to because i don't talk to Hellow so often and much until last Saturday.
We went to Woodlands and walked back. (It sound crazy, i know, but i don't care) And it was really fun. we had a good time talking as if we are old friends (maybe old but not too old- we know each other since like secondary two?)
And spending the whole day talking made me realised how similar we are. Haha. But it was like i was always interrupting Hellow when he wanted to say something (Iam sorry.) But i didn't regret at all spending the day out.  We agreed to do it again after MYE.

SHIT. MYE is here. I hate exams.

Haha.

I agree to study with Clara, and probably the whole cell group, on Sunday. So i guess iam gonna be busy this whole week. I have got the whole week plan. This is how it goes:
Monday: It's ending. Forget it.
Tuesday: School
Wednesday: (Start of MYE'09) English paper
Thursday: Chinese paper~ Damm. My chinese sucks.
Friday: 1.Probably study with someone, if not, on my own. (Morning)
             2.Tutor Bryan at 3 and have Chinese tution at 5. (Afternn)
             3. Use the net (Gotta check some stuff) 
             4. Pack my stuff for the next day
Saturday: 1.Meet Tim somewhere. Study literature (Woah, Tim's teaching me) 
                  2.Watch a movie that Tim's been owing me for my bdae last year
                  3.Probably meet up with Hash
Sunday: 1.Church
                2. Study with Clara

And i wonder sometimes why people label me as orgainised.

TO: (You know who the hell you are)
I have enough of your rubbish, enough of all your crap and whinings. It's getting not just me, but many people around you pissed. I give you the benefit of doubt that you didn't know you were attention-seeking, acting cute and stuff. Fine. But i went and told you on your blog indirectly. And hell, yeah, i told you i ain't a stranger. I used the name 'fisherman' on your tagboard so as to not end our friendship yet, give you bloody chances. CRAP MAN. WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER?! Maybe it was the trust, the bonds we all have that kept everyone from keeping quiet, but i ain't gonna do that anymore. It's annoying when you pretend purposely not to know sth, when you do all sort of stupid stuffs that get on everyone's nerve.
You ain't what you were anymore. You ain't the nice, friendly, modest, helpful type of girl i know anymore. Instead you turn into sth we don't like to talk to anymore- attention seeking, proud... You can be nice, that i gotta admit, but most of the time you ain't. That's what's getting almost everyone in our clique mad.
This year, frankly, i never really 'talked' to you. Whatever conversations are just those i will say to anyone. So that just shows we ain't really good friends anymore. Either you reflect what the hell you wanna be and change, or whether you want us to leave one by one. Your choice. And hell, i've been holding it for so long because i know you would complain to everyone else, and iam just trying to save them from the whining. The only thing that held me back was the people around us, i don't want them hurt. But now, i don't want a give a shit, because we are all just hurting each other- everyone, not just you and me.

I realised i have been missing you all this time.
I have been just lying to myself that i don't need you.

HEY PEOPLE (: [esp JOEE- hee, i know you always read my LJ]
I know i haven't been blogging for a long time. Yea, i know that very well and always been wanting to update it.
ARGHH! I gotta say i wish i seriously have more time. Well, everyone is saying that too, not just me that's for sure.
Gosh. It's like just yesterd, it was beginning of Secondary Four. MAN!

But at this point, everything just seems more scary (and they seem more scarier than a horror movie).
Really. Not because i suddenly realised that O Levels are just a few months away, but because i know how the hell iam not good 
with books. Iam more of a hands-on person. Ask me to put on a skit to grade me for my examination and i would, no matter how tiring i know it can be just preparing (oh yes it can).  And now knowing that the dates of the examinations is getting nearer, it is just like fuel to the fire. Ok girl, stop thinking about it, stop getting anxious.

Last Friday was the Sec Fours' Parents-Teachers Meeting (PTM) and all the teachers my mum met said iam a good girl (WOAH!), not much problems, just try to be focus and blahblahblah. Ok, and my mum says she is actually seeing me put in effort though. I was surprised. I mean, she used to say i was lazing my ass, and suddenly she sees me working really hard. And to me, i haven't changed much since last year's Term 4, really. So how can she see a difference?
Iam getting a little frustrated with myself and stuff. But like people say, it's part of the growing up part during this stage of my life.
I just got to be more patient with people around me and definitely, myself.

And iam missing some people. I guess you know you are. School and work  have been like keeping me away.
But i guess i will see you all soon (:

It's the end of the week, also, the end of camp and all the tiring training.
Ha. We are the only UG in school who started camp yesterd and break camp the next day.
NCC and BB are still having camp since yesterd, while NPCC started today.

MAN! Iam tired so i will make this a quick post and off to bed. My eyes are pratically half closed already.
SO anyway, we had this 'Drill Com' camp to prepare for today's competition. OMG. It was tiring. BUT WE MADE IT THROUGH. I MADE IT THROUGH without a splitting headache (Long story).

So we were training mad with whatever energy we had left yesterd, because we were still worn out by the Speech Day parade on Thursday & First Aid yesterd morning during the school's Cross Country.
I was so freaking scared last night (and i tried my best not to show it). Just about nearly 3 hours into training, just after 7PM, i felt a sharp pain. I pulled my right calf's muscles and it was minor but it hurted when i stood up. Tried hopping about but Mam Elieen told me not to, lest i sprain my left ankle. So she prayed, i prayed, Sister Helen prayed, Mrs Yeo prayed, we were all praying. I kept telling myself i can't waste this chance. It's my last year and iam NOT going to waste one month's effort of training.
I sat down, watched the girls train. They were all tired, weary to the bones, but they gave it there best shot, trying their best to do every move right esp the fancy drill. Iam really proud of them (:

Yesterd, i flopped onto my sleeping bag after laying it out and just knocked out. But i got up twice. One at 3.10AM, for God knows what. Second, when NCC was 'yumsei-ing' at 5plus in the morning. ONE WORD- SIAO! I swear residents nearby hate us. Anyway, my leg felt better but it still hurted. I didn't care much and went on with training. HAHA. And you know what?!

This week, as usual, went by fast. Even my grandma was " HUH?! So fast Friday?". And this is coming from some old lady who parks her ass in front of the box. Haha. 

OP IDOL. Yes. I gotta say iam really proud of you, Naz. You made it this far. Really. Not bad. 

Yesterday, we had a workshop, "Conquering the exams". And it made me question myself, am i giving my all into my studies right now, esp since this my O Levels year? I guess iam not. It's honestly exhasting everyday. But that's how life goes. Hang in there for a week. March's one week break is coming.

Speaking about next week- IT'S GOING TO BE HECTIC!
Monday- Wednesday: Normal school day
Thursday: Might be released earlier. Speech day is in the night, which means, I gotta go back for the parade. Gb & BB's the GOH this year. Definitely gonna sleep late.
Friday: In the morning, the school is having a cross-country run instead of the normal sport's carnival. And iam going to be in the First-Aid team (So no running for me. Haha.) In the evening i have to go back for a stayover camp for just that night.
Saturday: GB DRILL COMPETITION in the afternoon. After camp, i going to church for the 5612 camp. Charity wants me to go. (But Charity, you have the guys there to accompany you)

Seriously, I was a bit disappointed when some of my GB juniors said they were scared that the other UG would laugh at us. Reason because we are a small UG. But you know what? I DON'T CARE! You tell me which UG in our school has so much sisterly bonds like ours?Strength isn't a issue. Really, it ain't. I know you are all scared about the drill competition too. Hey, it's alright to be nervous. But don't say we can't get a silver. We can. Have the confidence ok (:

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Haha. I just took a quiz related to the TV show. Man, i love Supernatural.
I used to be the type who will have a cushion in front of my face when the whatever thing comes or when sth is ominous. LOL
Now iam not like that, at home. In the cinemas i guess i won't be able to watch horror genres stuff alone. But now there's the light on and stuff.  Currently watching Season 4 Episode 7.  And i think Jensen Ackles is hot (: Haha.